This Chaotic World

Your good thing was staring you in the face the whole time but you didn’t see it. Maybe you did but you didn’t want to believe it. I fought with everything in me to show that I cared And prayed that you’d come around because you were just scared Day in and day out I put my trust in you Just for you to one day say you were threw That’s fine I say but….You will miss me   So now it’s all about me and my sanity I have to get back what was taken away from me All the love, all the care, its way to much to bear Because of you selfishness there is so much to repair  Crying is easy but that doesn’t ease the pain I feel Everything reminds me of you and this doesn’t seem real But the sad truth is, He is gonna miss me   As the days and months go by and much to my surprise My smile has returned and so has the light in my eyes I can breathe again, I can live again and I’m happy again Nothing can stop me because in this battle of life I will win I started loving and caring for myself the way I should

My heart aches daily. My head aches daily. I have way too many sleepless nights. Wine is the only sleep medicine I can take and that still doesn’t help any. What is the problem? is it me? am I not pretty enough. Am I not worthy to be loved. Have I done anything in my past so bad that karma is punishing me. is God punishing me. I just don’t get it. No one deserves to have their heart shattered to pieces and then be left alone to glue them back together. I’m trying but it feels like some of these puzzle pieces are missing. I missing pieces from the middle and some corners. Until I find them I guess I will suffer in silence because no one can help me figure this out. So I get up daily to face this cruel alone with a mask on my face. I smile, I joke, I seem to have things all figured out.  But all the while my mind is racing trying to figure out where the pieces of my heart can be. The puzzle is too big. I mean this puzzle is bigger than 5000 pieces. Well maybe that’s because my heart was

50 said Vivica ate the booty like groceries . 50 is one person you might want to second guess starting a beed with. Beefing is practically what this man does for a living . This can get interesting. 

Vivica A Fox just insinuated that 50cent may be gay . Stating there was always a questionable cover he did with SouljaBoy where he looked like a , " Booty snatcher "   There's the cover ..... Tbc  We know 50cent's  clapback will be EPIC

On Saturday October 10,2015 we were blessed to be apart of an amazing event. The atmosphere was breathtaking . Millions came together at our nation's capital with one cause in mind Justice For all.  The US nation have been plagued with the evils of black on black on black  violence and a recent surge in police killings .20 years later this gathering Put together by the Honorable minister Farrakhan has a new agenda. Starting out in 1995 as a march to promote brotherhood amongst black men in America. The march of 2005 had a similar cause. In 2015 it was simply about the gathering of a people an oppressed people. no particular color creed sexuality or religion. One thing brought millions together , that one thing was Justice for the people .  Eutrophic atmosphere was enough to uplift the lowest of spirits. If you missed it take a look at some of the photos below. 

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In your eyes I saw the depths of forever  Couldn't even fathom a sour moment when we were together  Palm trees and cool breeze  Is what I felt in your presence  Falling leaves cold air  Was felt when we're apart from one another  I was prepared to ride  Battle the storms  Prepared for the worse type of weather  Fell in love with our ability to speak  Without words ever spoken  Thought I hit the lottery  Could've sworn you were my token  Better yet my trophy  More like an instant  soul Mate  Every time I close my eyes  I'm haunted by flashes of your face  Didn't realize it was a competition  Unclear there was an actual race  Had I known your love was the prize  I would've fought harder to win  1st place 

Just friends ?  Oh how I wish we never did it  We can't be friends  I don't wanna be just your friend More like your Homie Lover til the end  I hate that I was intrigued by your mystery  Imagining and eventually Longing for the days for us to create history  I hate that your smile is what brightens my most darkest days I hate that I've grown to LOVE you  in every possible way  I hate that it's you my mind wanders to in spare time  I hate the possibility of you NEVER being fully MINE  I hate that you LOVE me  But NOT enough  I hate how when I'm alone I yarn for your touch  I hate that I allowed my emotions to get ahead of my mind  My perception clouded my judgment  Now my reality doesn't match the picture in my mind   I hate feeling like I've wasted my time  

The love is different  often misunderstood  It's not that  They don't understand  It's just that  You're damaged  Goods You'll never love another  They'll never love you  Like I could  You'll forever be  Your abusive exes  damaged Goods You're so use to toxic   You've become love sick  Can't recognize what's right From what's wrong  You'll never  Love again Or ever think you would Your just Damaged Goods Use to the evil Can't recognize real love Realizing what u want  Is not far  Just let go  Not realizing  You will forever be  Damaged Goods

Protestors have gathered in Manhattans  Union Square in support of Baltimore.   One Nation Under GOD we say  Americans United for a Cause. How many more marches will it take?  ALL LIVES matter but at this present time the nation is concentrating on the black lives. Too many lost with no explanation.  That Dream Is now to be a black man  and not fear for your life in the presence of an officer.  Peaceful protest wouldn't be a success without some pointless arrest. NYPD at work.  Guess this was their warning . If you don't stand for something You'll fall for anything  ALL LIVES MATTER!   

TODAY is the Day ! Baltimore City is in an uproar. The day Freddie Gray did not make it home was the day the Negroes of Baltimore changed their mind.  They were peaceful ! They were calm !  For every action there's an equal or greater reaction !  Rapper MeekMill shared his experience with Police Brutality  The City of Baltimore is overflowing with anger and confusion . Emotions are at an all time high in Balitore, MD. Images of the riots are flooding social media outlets.  But it's not all bad things going on in Baltimore. The media doesn't care to shed light on the positive images like the ones below.  A young man provides officers bottles of water as they stand prepared to fight off protestors . A group of citizens clean up after a CVS is set on fire. Bloods, Crips and members of the Nation of Islam came together for a peaceful protest early Saturday 4/25/15. Rioting is only 1/2 of the Ugly truth in AmeriKKKa.  The Above photo is only 1/3 of the individuals murdered by Po

I It is said every time you sleep with someone, a piece of them is left behind .  Sex is the intertwining of the souls . When  two bodies collide not only are their sharing physical pleasures they are exchanging spiritual pleasures as well. The reason why a lot of people are mentally emotionally and sexually LOST is because we are filled with the wrong energies and auras from past sexual relations.  A person may  look good on the outside but at times their souls don't match their outter being. Take  heed to who and what you allow inside of you and or what and who you place yourself inside of.