This Chaotic World

She's soul searching Looking for all the right things In all the wrong directions She's looking gorgeous on the outside Yet her world is crumbling from within She's a Beautiful Chaos Just tryna make it to the End -Chaos xoxoxox

Momma always said there's two things a person woukd never have at once; they are Time and Money. I never knew how true this was until Now. There's no worse feeling than to live with a bunch of should've could've would've. What can u do when.your dreams meet up with your reality yet they are.headed in two different directions. Do you follow your heart or go with you mind. Do you do what will be beneficial in the long run or do you do whats great for right now?

                  The Front cover of the Daily news spoke volumes today. When will it end? If you've been under a rock for the last couple months a high profile case was going on. The case was based on the February 2012 murder of an unarmed teen in the city of Sanford, FL.  After 18 hours of deliberations the jury filled with moms, came to the conclusion that George Zimmerman was NOT Guilty on 2nd degree murder or manslaughter charges.                   For those who truly don't know the background of the case , here's a quick recap. One night in February 2012 Trayvon Martin was out walking in his dad's gated community, on his way home he stopped by a 7/11 where he purchased some late night snacks (IE a can of Arizona ice tea and a bag of skittles). Little did Trayvon know, hes being stalked by a local neighborhood watch guy, George Zimmerman. Prior to their meeting the neighborhood watch p...

Just a quick thought I had on the train to work.......

Listening to Frank Ocean's "lost" and cant help but think of how a person may find themselves just that LOST.  One may find themselves sitting and actually losing themselves in their own thoughts and dreams. As a Pisces I find my self "Lost" often. We're known to be dreamers. Dreamers who dream with their eyes wide shut. :)  Our dreams and ideas are so in depth that we may find ourselves blinded at times. Its hard for us to differentiate reality from our own personal fantasy realm. Something I've found myself struggling with the most recently.  We go through our child hood practically begging for adulthood and spend the rest of our lives dreaming or wishing we could go back to being kids again. Every thing is a mystery for us HUMANS. Some may spend their entire childhood searching for things that will make them an adult only to spend their entire adult hood regretting the fact that they didnt fully enjoy their child hood. When you spend your time seakin...

So every once in a blue I stopped by this nice spot in South Orange to hear some live music and enjoy some good drinks. I have a friend who's band performs there from time to time.  Last night, I found myself at Papillon 25 enjoying great sounds and preparing my self to indulge in my favorite drink, their coconut-tini. My friend and I placed our orders and prepared ourselves for what we thought would be an enjoyable night. As our waiter bought our drinks out he noticed her ID on the table and stated , "Oh you have that out for me?". She smiles and says, "I mean you never asked for it but if you want here".  I'm grooving to the sounds of the live band not paying pretty much any mind to what is  going on,  so he ask me for mine as well. I smiled gave him my id and continue to enjoy the show. In a matter of seconds he replies, "these aren't you ..." as he checks the id's while looking at us as well. He then goes as far as asking me for my c...

So I have some issue with people who simply don't know how to drive. Don't get me wrong I'm a speed demon myself but gosh have I encountered some down right driving dummies. Whats with the lack of the use of a signal? No one uses signals nowadays but old folks and new drivers. Ive been blessed to have my license for 8 years now and boy has it been an eventful experience.  Not using a signal is not only unsafe to your self but other drivers as well. Like hey Mr. 95 Corolla you might wanna let me know your making that right turn before you go for a sudden brake right in front of me. No wonder insurance is so damn high in this area. This area is crazy accident prone. Its like every one is in a stolen car either their going too fast or not using signals to avoid the car behind following them.  Is there like an unwritten rule that I missed when I took drivers ed about not signaling. It really grinds my gears!!!!! No I shouldn't be going 40 on a residential (just kidding sp...